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C'HLOE . Peiwen ,
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Saturday, August 27, 2011
Its th end of UT3 already, its th end of year1 semester1. I don't know if i should be happy or sad about it. Finally there is holiday, but i will miss my friends from W47L. Wonder what kind of people there will be in my next class.
Went out with my precious girls today (: to flea. But nothing interest me there, so didn't get anything. I'm gonna buy alot of things from Bangkok, i gotta save money now. Maybe find some flyer jobs, so i can work with my girls too :DD
Really gonna miss Melody Sandra Shikin Liyana Afiqah and Candice alot. Hope i can spend more time with them this holiday (:
C'HLOE
@ 12:25 AM
MyBlog :DD
Tuesday, August 23, 2011
Since this is my blog and no one will ever visit this website because it is so dead, i have decided to post anything i like and want! The photo that i posted is th hair style that i tied up at thmoment. Nothing special, but tying it this way makes my hair looks longer. I don't know if i should let the others know about this blog. It's nothing interesting thou.
It's Tuesday today! Two ut down, three more to go! Then it's holiday, can't wait. Excited for the outings they have sort of planned! But before that, UTs. Likea sian. Managed to survive OB today. Have no idea if i'll pass or fail, but what th heck, its over alr. Shall not think about it anymore. Gotta concentrate on other modules now! And it's science tmr, think i'm gonna fail like shit. Don't understand a single thing on physics. But still gotta look through the 6Ps later.
I have no idea if i should be together with him, there are so many things to consider. It's not like everything will happen smoothly. I don't want anything to go wrong this time, but now, it feels like it's fading. Somehow. Maybe it is time to move to th next step, but it seems like th wrong timing. IDK. What if i am the next one that is gonna hurt him, what if nothing changes, what if he still likes her? There are too many 'what ifs' to consider, i am just afraid. But the good thing is he is kinda sweet. I'm just worried that i'm not ready yet.
C'HLOE
@ 4:23 PM
Am I prepared?
Sunday, August 21, 2011
Its now late at night already, and i'm still not in bed for tmr's test. It's UT3 tmr! Likea worst nightmare if i fail. I don't know if i'm prepared anot, thou i have read everything that is inside th 6P. I hope it is enough for me to understand and be ready for the test! I don't feel a least worried about th test, and i don't know why. Maybe because i don't have the sense of urgency. But i hope i can pass everything for UT3, if not i'm announced dead :x
I'm in my aircon room which is not cold enough for me, trying to read some notes on cog. But unable, cause nothing is getting into my head. I'm so gonna throw everything in my mind on cog away after tmr's test. Gotta let other stuff in. Next day is OB! Alot of things to remember, i think i'm dying just by thinking about it.
Okayokay. I'm so gonna stop blabbering about UT for now. Gotta go for my goodnight sleep to be prepared for tmr's UT (:
And i'm meeting th girls in th morning before school!
Kinda miss them :DD
C'HLOE
@ 10:46 PM
Doubt.
I don't know if i can trust you. After ytd, you sms-ed me that you like me, and i treated it like a joke. We never talked about it anymore. I don't know if i can trust myself to not hurt you. I know you don't need another girl in your life to hurt you again. I have no idea what to do or say to make you understand. I've got to think it over, CAREFULLY. I can't bare if i do anything to hurt you.
After what i found out from melody ytd, i realised what you said to me was true. But i couldn't believe at that time. And what you did to grace. I don't know if i was another target for you to play with, or is it just a girl that can replace her. Maybe we just need time, to go slow.
I don't know how much you like me compared to everyone else. What irritates me th most is you, keep talking to C on twitter. You have no idea how i feel everytime i see that. Th more i see it, th more i think we are just normal friends just like you and C. Just that you and her have more than us.
I don't know what to do now. Just let nature take its course. If it's meant to be, it will be. I don't want to worry so much even before th relationship start.
This time, i've got to make sure. Got to think twice.
找不到出口
C'HLOE
@ 1:09 PM
Deceived
Saturday, August 20, 2011
When all is suppose to be perfect. When i thought everything is going th way i want it to be, turns out, i was wrong. Its been days that we texted each other, and now i know all those sweet talks are meaningless. You never wanted a relationship, you just wanted a girl to play with. When being asked, why your answer couldn't be a 'maybe'. It's really hard to hear it from someone else how you feel about me. A 'maybe' is so much better than 'don't know'. It really hurts when i heard it. But then again, you never told me that you like me. I have no rights to even ask you, to even question you. All i could do is to pretend that everything is th same as before, maybe someday it'll work out. Maybe it will turn out th way i want it to be. I now have no idea how i should face you. After th whole day ytd, you really disappoint me. Maybe i shouldn't even trusted you in th first place. When i feel that something is different, i use means and ways to find out th things that i already know. Th moment you said, ' i've got something on my mind. But you don't need to know' i know it's impossible. Is it because you're just not careful with your words, or you really mean what you said. Implying that it is none of my business. Its a mistake to begin with. I'm being all dumb and stupid all over again. Why is it almost all th guy i met have to be this way. And eventually they will just leave, without saying anything. Now, all i have to do is to wait for history to repeat itself.
Th hardest thing about knowing you don't love me is that you spent so much time pretending that you did.
C'HLOE
@ 11:22 AM
就那麼巧吧
Wednesday, November 3, 2010
可憐的他, 今天又要開始工作了. 都這麼晚開工的嗎. 恩, 我也要開始我的畫了. 不然都不懂何時能完成 :DD
I'm starting on my art! Yeah, really boring. But I heard some good news today, looking forward to th story. Hmm, haven't heard from tohyunhui when are we exactly going out on a W.H.Y outing. Yeahyeah, going draw and wait for her to wake up. In th meantime I'm gonna follow them every minute and second again. hahahas, cause this is all i can update my blog about.
C'HLOE
@ 1:51 PM
將心回歸原點
Tuesday, November 2, 2010
不知道該不該後悔曾經那樣的放棄.
要怪就怪我放不下.
在完美的夜空里, 卻少了閃爍星星.
就像我的生命里少了那個你.
我有話要說, 只對你說.
就在看見的那一瞬間, 好像瘋了.
感覺那是真實的你.
C'HLOE
@ 12:26 PM